My AHA! Moment
Tuesday October 17, 2017 . . . . .the day my life changed forever. The day I read the words INVASIVE DUCTAL CARCINOMA. I sat in the car for what seemed like an hour just staring at the words…..INVASIVE DUCTAL CARCINOMA. Finally, after 4 agonizing weeks I knew. Truth is, deep down I knew it from the very day I felt the lump coming out of the shower. That day when my hand brushed across my right breast and stopped on something hard, I instinctively knew it was the ‘Big C’.
I spent the next few weeks getting really intimate with the folks at Radiology West…first the mammogram, then the ultra sound and finally a needle biopsy. Thanks to a resourceful friend I was able to get the 3 tests done within a 5-day span, but then came the wait, 3 whole weeks. Not enough pathologists in Montego Bay meant I had no choice but to wait. While I waited, I read. Read everything I could get my hands on as it relates to cancer. Google became my best friend. Cancer feeds on sugar, cancer flourishes in stress, body needs to be in an alkaline state to ward off disease. By October 17th, I had cut just about everything from my diet…..sugar, rice, flour, dairy, all meat except fish once or twice a week. All the things I had tried to purge myself of over the last 3 years, I quit cold turkey in just 3 weeks.
Turns out my body had become a perfect storm, the perfect storm for cancer to form in her midst. I wasn’t putting the right things in it, simply put too much sugar and I internalized my stress. So here I was in the middle of starting a new business, not making enough money to make ends meet, no health insurance, now contemplating how to deal with a potential cancer diagnosis. It made no sense to panic. The only thing that made sense in that moment was to take charge of the one thing I could control…what I put in my mouth, what I fed my body. By the time I met with a surgeon on October 19th I had lost 5 lbs. I remember joking with my 2 girlfriends who tagged along for that first consultation that there was a least one silver lining in this whole thing….weight loss. LOL, haffi tek serious ting mek joke.
With the help of my tribe, I ate and laughed my way to December 12th (surgery day), the day the fight with the ‘Big C’ officially began. The day I said ‘Bye bye’ to my right breast, the day I sent her packing. This fight is by no means over, its really just begun. The important thing is I AM HERE, now 26lbs and one breast lighter 😉, armoured up, bolstered by my tribe and READY FOR THE FIGHT AHEAD.
I’ve struggled with whether to keep my battle with cancer private. Over the last 2 months I’ve connected with a number of women who walked this same path and their insight has been priceless. On the urging of my sister and close friends I’ve decided to chronicle this journey in the hope that it will help even one person who may face this same battle.
So here I am in 2018, thankful for my tribe who have held me up, prayed with me, laughed with me, cried with me, sponge-bathed me 😉. I am thankful for life and strange as it may sound, I am thankful for cancer. Cancer forced me to face some hard truths about myself, brought me closer to a healthier me. Not to worry though, I am ready to see cancer’s back so it can go where 2017 has gone, not welcome around here no more…..